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at the DNC Convention. i'm thinking about entering. it would probably be a total nightmare for me if i was even chosen. speaking to the dnc on national television. i learned a lot in my speech class, but i don't think anything would prepare me for that. Jenn posted at 3:55 AM | |
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i've been reading confessions of a shopaholic and like sex and the city, it's making want to shop and relish in all things designer and beautiful. of course, i'm not going to do that, but as soon as i write the checks for my bills, i'm going to jc penny's sale and back to kohl's for some livin-on-a-budget shopping. oh yeah, i'm living on the edge. Jenn posted at 7:12 PM | |
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i want to enter, but not for myself. so should i put all my contact information and then write the essay about the person or do i fill out the form like i am the person and write the essay accordingly? i only have until 8:59 tomorrow my time to figure this out! Jenn posted at 5:56 PM | |
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i woke up at 1:45 today. i think that's the longest i've slept in a long time. i had a series of weird dreams, all of which i have impressions of, but can't put into words. i hate when that happens! Jenn posted at 5:16 PM | |
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i saw the greatest rainbow on my drive home from the bank. it was faint, but i could see all the colors from red to purple. i would look away to drive and then i found myself searching for it in the sky -- it followed me home. it was a sign of something, but i haven't figured it out yet. Jenn posted at 9:03 PM | |
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k: how does this company stay afloat? j: like a ferry! (referring to the ferry crash in manila) Jenn posted at 6:38 PM | |
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That girl was a onetime Teenage drama queen A hot, tough Everyday wannabe But she'll have changed her destiny Now she's a somebody That girl was a wild-child dreamer But she'll find herself 'Cause she believes in nothing else Then you'll look back and you won't believe That girl was me "drama queen (that girl)" by lindsay lohan Jenn posted at 11:30 PM | |
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situps: 60 pushups: 25 i've decided it is high time i get fit. i want my flat, girly stomach back. Jenn posted at 3:53 AM | |
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well, i decided to forego my trip to sf in april for a trip back to the homeland for easter. i'll be getting in early saturday morning and out again on sunday evening just like usual. if you're in town, i'd love to get together. chris, breakfast on sunday? i was in spreadsheet hell today, but that was okay because i was mentally unprepared for work anyhow. i did feel cute today. i wore my slimming khaki pants and black top from banana republic with my new chinese shoes that i picked up in chinatown when i was in sf. i had several pairs when i was in middle school and the first part of high school that i would wear with my bell uniform until they wore out and i couldn't find them anymore. i was so excited to find them in that little shop and they were only $5.99! way cheaper than when i used to buy them. i will be well-stocked when i moved up there! Jenn posted at 8:26 PM | |
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i'm switching between a rerun of "the west wing" on kcal and "fokus deutsch" on pbs, the program we used as a supplement at mason for my intro german class. brings back very strange memories for me, but i like the fact that if i really pay attention, i can still understand what they are saying. i just bought my ticket for abt on april 3rd. i'm going to see ethan dance! this excites me to no end even though i will be in the balcony and quite far from the action as it were. perhaps i can figure out a way to meet him afterwards. i'm sure if had a founder's circle seat, i'd be able to or have a connection that would allow me to be introduced to him like in "center stage." i woke up with a headache and sore muscles from dancing too much, but other than that, i'm no worse for wear. i slept about 12 hours today and i feel good though i did not shower on brush my teeth or change out of my pajamas. i have to go to the grocery store. i have nothing good to eat. i'm sick of eating taquitos and drinking water. i never got a chance to call julie this weekend. i should do that tomorrow after work. i can't neglect my other "big sister." Jenn posted at 3:25 AM | |
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Flowers for Al and Don Jenn posted at 2:42 AM | |
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on sex and the city last week, carrie was walking to dior in the rain and when she went inside, she slipped and fell, sprawling across the floor. well, i did that today at the century city mall. i was wearing my heels as i was dressed to go out later and i totally slipped on a wet part of the tile floor in a store. i'm going to have a huge bruise tomorrow, i'm sure. i just got in from d and tony's par-tay and i'm still a little buzzed and i'm definitely tired. d bought me a sex on the beach which i nursed for most of the night. d was totally fucked up as was most of the rest of the party. we played games and noshed and then we went out on the dance floor. my ears are still ringing and my feet are killing me, but i had a blast. it was great to hang out with my "big sister" for a night. she was so fucked up when i left. she kept hugging me and telling me that she loved me. it was sweet, but funny. i'm going to crash now. good night all! Jenn posted at 5:26 AM | |
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i got a message on my voice mail this morning from my cousin, julie. she saw dan from the real world: miami on campus (she works for asu), trying to get students to register to vote. so that reminded her of me and she decided to call me today to chat. i haven't called her back yet, but as i sit here watching et on mtv: sex and the city, i'm wondering what reminded her of me -- my obsession with the classic real world, registering to vote (my devotion to politics), just being on campus and knowing that i just got accepted to college. i guess i should make that phone call so i can put my curiosity to rest. Jenn posted at 5:20 PM | |
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i left this in the comments of lara-elaine's blog entry, but i thought i'd post it in my own blog as well. Jenn posted at 4:49 PM | |
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well, tonight was a waste of time. instead of being an info session, it was your typical selling-the-school speeches, complete with student testimony and power point presentations projected on a big screen. there was even a point where one of the sfsu people was yelling at people to sit for the last part of the presentation. now that may not sound odd, but when you tell someone that there are seats and no one makes a move for them, perhaps they would care not to sit. that means it is not your cue to continue yelling at them, waving your hands as if they can see you in the brightly lit hotel ballroom until they bend to your will. yeah, nothing endears to a university like being screamed at for your penchant for standing. Jenn posted at 2:58 AM | |
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despite being home sick for the past two days, i fell asleep watching the simpsons, totally missing friends. i woke up halfway through er. i didn't do laundry or clean up or anything. i feel like such a sloth and i missed one of the last episodes of my favorite show. and i'm still tired. i had a strange day at work that i can go in to more tomorrow. it's days like this that i wish could wrap up in the arms of a good looking guy and watch television before drifting off to sleep. ::sigh:: Jenn posted at 2:14 AM | |
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i completely agree! Jenn posted at 11:15 PM | |
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high score update: 321 Jenn posted at 11:09 PM | |
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why is it that on a day when i'm too sick to go to work and it's raining, so i won't be seeing anyone that my hair looks fabulous just by letting it towel and air dry and put up with a clip? it just doesn't seem fair. i just know it's going to look like crap in the morning. Jenn posted at 8:27 PM | |
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penguin batting i haven't been able to beat jenn's high score, but i'm certainly working at it. Jenn posted at 3:55 PM | |
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one man. six degrees. a thousand thanks. Jenn posted at 3:51 PM | |
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This is the right time, once in a lifetime So I find it hard to sleep, don't you know, The sun is shining in my window, life's in flow, Makin' music in the morning, laughter's light, Creativity touches in full flight "the right time" by the corrs Jenn posted at 3:20 AM | |
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friday even though i was nervous about getting it all done, i picked up my shirt at the dry cleaners, deposited my paycheck and parked my car with plenty of time to get to the airport and get checked in. i started a letter to anna and covertly checked out a hot marine in the boarding area. after i arrived, my parents came to pick me up and we had dinner at ihop since i hadn't eaten all day. we went back to the hotel and i unpacked the binder as well as my map and other supplemental materials for this trip. we chatted about various things with various levels of success and decided to leave in the morning by 8am. saturday we got out of the hotel and south san francisco about 8:30am and headed to pick up the 49-mile scenic drive. we drove past pac bell park and made our way down the embarcadero. from there it was pictures at the transamerica pyramid, with my dad laying the street to get the great shots and a mailman shaking his head while laughing. we then headed down market street, stopping at rite aid so my mom could pick up kleenex and i could buy a razor to shave my legs in the morning. we drove past japantown and then we went down to chinatown for some lunch at a great restaurant and we were acosted by a crazy chinese woman on our way inside. very strange. following lunch, we drove across town so i could visit the state bookstore and stock up on all the merchandise i could handle. then it was up to nob hill to visit grace cathedral and that apartment that i'd been wanting to see. well, the cathedral is beautiful, but the apartment is so not and not on a good street as previous thought. we headed up to telegraph hill, up to coit tower, where the view was spectacular as always. we headed down to the waterfront, past fisherman's wharf and ghirardelli square. we decided not to stop then, vowing to back at night. we continued past the marina district, through the presidio before stopping finally at fort point for the fabulous view of the golden gate bridge. you could actually see it this time, no fog and it was fabulous! by the time we finished, it was getting too dark to get any good pictures from the other side, so we decided to head back to the waterfront for dinner at pier 39. we found a faboo spot to park on the street with no meter and headed on the pier. we decided on dante's seafood grill. after an incredibly long wait due to it being valentine's day, we had dinner and then headed back to the hotel, thoroughly exhausted. sunday we got up a bit later and headed for church at temple umc. not a fan. we went back to the hotel to change and have lunch (mcdonald's) and then headed up to the golden gate bridge. we crossed it -- in the middle lane, of course -- stopped at the rest stop on the other side for pictures. then it was up to the marin headlands for foggy pictures and the fog started to roll in, setting the mood for the day. the rain started as we crossed back to the sf side and headed back on the scenic drive. a quick stop at cliff house in the rain and back to the route. we drove along the coast and around park merced. we weaved through the surrounding neighborhoods before making our way through golden gate park. one of the main streets was closed for pedestrians because it was sunday, so there were some detours and u-turns, but we made it to the end okay. we detour through the haight and found there is a GAP in the haight. ugh, i know! i still can't get over it. we drove up to christmas tree point and took some amazing photos of the city -- you can see 360-degrees and despite the early fog and rain, it was perfectly clear. a quick through the mission district and we had finished the scenic drive. we drove back to the waterfront, parking at ghirardelli square and walking through the cannery and fisherman's wharf before deciding to head back to pier 39. after hearing the sea lions the night before, i wanted to eat the sea lion cafe. we had a window table and even though they were closed, we could still hear them barking. after dinner, we went down to the dock and watched them. it was so fascinating and hysterical. i could have stayed there all night. we went back to the hotel and my mom helped me repack my bag to fit all my souvenirs in it. monday we checked out of the hotel and went back to school for the tour, which was very informative and helpful. even though it was windy and cold and raining, i could still totally see myself, rushing off to class or up to the tower to catch a catnap. we got gas and headed back to ghirardelli square afterwards and rode a cable car. it was amazing! i'm sure i'll get tired of it some day, but i loved it! we shopped at the mall off powell before taking another car back where i stood on the outside like a pro. we headed to oakland, across the bridge, so my parents could check into their hotel for the night. it was super windy and even though we were on the bottom deck the rain was still blowing in from the sides. same on the back. we lunched at north beach pizza which was fantastic and definitely on my list of favorites for when i move there. we went back to watch the sea lions and then it was time to go to the airport. i shouldn't have rushed so much because my flight was delayed for an hour and half because of the weather. we took off about the time i was supposed to land in la. i had a fabulous time but lack of sleep caught up with me today, giving me a migraine and making me miss work. i checked my grades and i got an A in my speech class. yes, that's right, miss can't-stand-up-in-front-of-class-to-talk-about-herself-without-wanting-to-throw-up got an a! i rock so much. and i'm modest too! 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saw my first episode of gilmore girls. i really liked it. that is all for now. Jenn posted at 12:00 AM | |
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after having my flight delayed for over an hour and then getting stuck on an airport shuttle with a family returning from hawaii after attending a wedding, i am home. i have checked my e-mail and various other things that i do on the web and am just about ready to turn out the light. san fran was great and will post all about it tomorrow. Jenn posted at 3:03 AM | |
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i have packed and am now powering down my computer. i have decided not to take my laptop with me, so i will be free to explore and not tempted to blog other such pedestrian pursuits. see you next week! Jenn posted at 4:31 PM | |
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small pet peeve that i must share before i burst and snap at the next flower delivery person who comes into the office. today is clearly february 13th. valentine's day is february 14th. why oh why must people receive flowers at work today? just to show everyone else that someone loves them? save it for tomorrow. yeah, no one gets to see it, but is that what supposed to matter? um, no. it's a day about love, not showing off how much your significant other bought you. meh! and now, i must finish packing in the next 20 minutes! Jenn posted at 4:12 PM | |
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while reading some food for thought from french toast girl, i, of couse, started thinking. she mentioned, One of the most special valentines I've ever received was from my friend David in the ninth grade. It was just a "You're a good friend" valentine, and didn't mean anything more than that, but it really made my day. and it reminded me of my 8th grade valentine's day. chris had his mom drive him to my house where he gave me a card and a carnation. the card had a picture of a cat on the front and it said "i'm so lucky" and on the inside, it said "to have a friend like you." under that he wrote, "and it's true!" that card meant so much to me. at the time it was because i was so in love with him and i didn't know he was on his way to erin's house with roses. but it became a touchstone if you will to a time when crushes were fun and love was easy and getting a carnation from a boy was the best, even if he didn't like you "that way." this prompted me to look through my box of saved cards and letters. i have a few different boxes and someday i'll get it all into one. i found the letters that chris wrote me from boot camp (including the first one on marine corps stationary that he signed my mom was telling me about some of the problems with committed the bell and youth programs have been having in the past few years. i was shocked and amazed to hear that. i remember wanting to be a carol ringer from the time i could walk and slipping on that ugly striped blouse was a matter of pride. we talked about how connected the class of 98 and 99 were to each other and the program. i know i participated in most of the things that i did because i knew my friends would be there. i can't imagine not having these people in my life. we don't stay up all night taking purity tests (remember that night?!) or go to dinner dances any more. hell, we can barely get more than two of us together for a meal around the holidays. but i know, i know, that if i needed something, i could call any of one of them and they would do everything they could for me. and it goes both ways. i'm fond of saying they are my chosen family. because they are family to me. caryn and i have known each other since i was in a car seat and she wasn't. chris and i bonded singing the descant in altar choir. i can't remember a time when i didn't know adam. i acolyted for the first time with kristin in the seventh grade and we fabulous friends ever since. and well, everyone knows the saga of me and chris...well, ...yeah, you probably do know everything because somehow rumors would spread like a california wildfire after a seven year drought. erin and i have known each other since kindergarten but didn't become friends until our parents forced us into a carpool. now she's the sister i don't see very often but still love who has the same size hands as me. and there's katie and jenni and anna and rachel and eugnia and all other people who helped me become the person i am today. yes, those are the people to blame. *snerk* anna sent me a postcard from germany that is hanging on my wall that says, ein freund ist jemand bei dem man sich mal haengen lassen kann -- translation: a friend is someone with whom you can let it all hang out. i'd have to agree. i'm supposed to be packing...or sleeping. considering i haven't made it on time to work once this week, i should get to bed so i can get some sleep before that blasted alarm goes off. i'm guessing, though, that i'm going to procrastinate more by reading one of the long letters from my file, then spend at least an hour packing for this little three day weekend jaunt before heading to bed and hitting the snooze more time than i should in the morning. Jenn posted at 4:27 AM |
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news from my new hometown Jenn posted at 12:01 AM | |
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without getting into too much detail, i just want to say that i am so glad that i left hpr and found my current job. today was just another example of how much i love joan and i can that she cares about me to. she asked me if i had heard from him (meaning kb) and we had a chat about the situation while she faxed her stuff. she said that she just wanted to make sure i was okay, since she was my instate mom and that was her priority. somedays it's just good to know there are people out here that care about me. i lead a solitary existence when i'm not at work (and surround by people), so i like that i have joan on my side. she's a great manager and i really feel lucky to have her as a mentor. she's a fabulous business woman, no nonsense, but kind at heart and i really feel like she's a role model for me. Jenn posted at 10:13 PM |
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as i was updating my calendar on the sidebar, i realize that the abt performance that i want to attend is the same day as the sfsu sneak preview day/open house. i guess it's a good thing that ticketmaster wouldn't sell me my ticket this weekend. so, now i have to decide whether i want to go to san fran or see ethan dance. oh, decisions, decisions. i'll probably have a better idea what i want to do after the info session next week. i'm watching the simpsons episode where they go to australia, which contains one of my favorite moments. homer is enthralled with the fact that the american embassy is american soil and is jumping back and forth between the two until the marine decks him saying, "here in american we don't tolerate that kind of crap, sir!" Jenn posted at 10:53 PM | |
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i stopped by goodwill today and got all of kb and my shit out of the back of my car, so it actually looks good again. i walked up and down the promenade, stopping at z gallerie, noteworthy, pottery barn, j crew and banana republic. i'm looking for an gift for d and tony's anniversary next weekend, but nothing really jumped out at me. i did however finally see in person the fabulous dress that i found online that time. it was so gorgeous and so 'hey world, look at me!' -- so i've decided i'm saving up for it. i'm going to be a responsible adult and not just run up my credit card bill like i always do. Jenn posted at 10:31 PM | |
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i've thought about blogging all day today, but i just realized now that i hadn't actually done it. silly jenn. well, i can't lift my arms over my head and i feel like someone kicked me in the chest. sighing and taking deep breaths hurts. yay for yoga! i guess i need to get back into it so that i can build muscles and such instead of just being in pain. i buying some great abt gear from capezio. there's a little part of me that still thinks i could be a dancer. i know, i know, but i like to dream. my parents voted in the va primary today and i actually convinced them to vote for my candidate! yay for me! i got my official sample ballot today, so i'm ready for our primary in march. i love voting. i've never not voted when there was an opportunity to do so. is it because i was raised in the political environment of northern virginia? i have civicly-minded parents? or i'm just a crazy democratic liberal who loves to punch the chad and pull the lever? probably a combo of the three. that's one of the reasons i'm excited to move to san fran. it's such an activist town and so democratic. it's political heaven! ::sigh:: oooh, that hurt. can't do that anymore. i took all my dry cleaning in today and i tried to sell my book back, but they don't buy it back anymore, so i "donated" it. then i went to the bookstore and bought my requisite long sleeved t-shirt and a pair of sport shorts. they were both on sale, so i didn't even have to pay as much as i thought i was going to. i went by goodwill to donate the stuff that kb left when he moved and some of my stufff, but they were closed, so i guess i'm going to have to tomorrow. i also have to do laundry, so i can pack my bag on thursday night. alright, i gotta get to bed. i'm tired of being tired in the morning. Jenn posted at 2:49 AM | |
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i went to yoga tonight. i couldn't sleep last night and i didn't end up going to bed until after 3am. when you have to get up at 6:30am, it doesn't leave much time for sleeping. i felt like such a sloth all weekend and i was tired today. but i'm always tired and i can't get up on saturdays, so i never do anything about it. so today at work, i decided to check when gurmuhk had classes in the evenings this week. lo and behold, she had one tonight. so i decided to grab my yoga stuff at lunch and hit the studio after work. i didn't get the workout that i wanted, but i definitely got the stretching and meditation that i've desperately been needing, so it all works out. positives:
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i'm having a late dinner tonight while watching "pearl harbor" on abc. i'd forgotten how much liked the love story even though it doesn't do even a kernel of justice to the story of that day in hawaii. That says it all, doesn't it? We always want what we never get Well listen hear, my friend I can't continue to pretend that it's alright "that says it all" by duncan sheik yup, i've been watching "three to tango" again tonight as well. and i'm on my second helping of "you've got mail." yup, i've ingested enough romantic comedies today to last me all week and hopefully get me through that unmentionable holiday that is coming on saturday. i won't be home for the big v day -- i'll be living it up in san francisco with the parents and i can't decide whether that is better or worse. i've had cute valentine's days and lame ones, but most fit somewhere in between. people in relationships never seem to stress about valentine's day. i mean, sure there's the stress of finding the perfect gift that properly expresses your love, but i don't think that's anything when compared to the constant reminder that you are alone on this day of love and might always be that way. ::sigh:: of course, i'm immune to that thinking as i am an enlightened female who knows that a man cannot bring happiness. right. immune. Jenn posted at 2:30 AM | |
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i've only seen a few minutes of this show, but i love it already! how to take a good picture, how to scrapbook and how to write a will -- all before the commercial break! up next is how to give the perfect toast and the word of the week. love this! Jenn posted at 4:52 AM | |
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i got my diploma in the mail today -- i'm officially a graduate of santa monica college with an associate of arts in liberal arts. it feels good to finally have that piece of paper. i can't wait to get the other piece of paper to hang next to it. i'm watching "under the tuscan sun" and the landscapes are so beautiful, with the waves breaking over the sidewalk and villages built into the cliffs. i remember when i first moved here that i saw the beauty of this town, with the mansions in the hills and sunsets over the water. now i just see traffic and smog and broken streets ruining the suspension of my car. when i go to san francisco, i am enthralled with the steep streets and magnificent beauty of the bridges. how long will it be before i'm tired of turning my wheels on the hill and the intermittent fog? i need a good san francisco movie. i have favorite films for all the places that i've lived. washington dc -- "the american president" (honorable mention: "remember the titans"); los angeles -- "playing by heart" (honorable mention: "la story"). the only san fran movie worth mentioning is "mrs. doubtfire" and i really don't want that to be my san francisco movie. i don't even have an honorable mention. i spent $120 at kohl's but i don't really feel like i got anything of note. i got some shoes that are going to be terribly comfortable, but they will serve their purpose while i continue to search for the "perfect" shoes. i did find an obscenely short skirt that i just had to have. if i'm ever daring and going to a club or something it will be perfect. until then, it'll just go in the "sexy and single" part of my closet. i'm definitely single, but i'm still working on that sexy thing ::sigh:: the winds have died down now. should be a clear day tomorrow. or i guess, later today. i'm even thinking about going to church. we shall see what the morning brings. i'm making a list of all the la things that i've always wanted to do, but never found the time to do. i'm moving in six months and i don't really see a good reason to come back here and visit. so i'm going to go to the art museums and troll yard sales in the hollywood hills, looking for the aniston-pitt's old coffee maker. i'm going to take my boogie board out into the water and bike to malibu, even if i have to take a cab back. i'm getting tickets to abt at the dorothy chandler pavillion and sarah mclachlan at the staples center. i've always wanted to see ethan dance and sarah sing, and now i will. Jenn posted at 4:44 AM | |
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first, rock on caryn -- you know i'm right with you on that! i went to jerry's last night in studio city to meet stace and the rest of the mb road crew, but we didn't end up meeting up. but it led to another first for me. i had a meal in a sit down restaurant by myself. i've never done that before. it was quite easier than i expected, though i wish i would have had my journal or a book or something. the santa ana winds are back and whipping. i wanted to go to yoga this morning, but i just couldn't get up when the alarm went off this morning. so i got 12 hours of sleep and i feel really good. i gotta go shower though cause i feel nasty! i was checking the kohl's website and it looks like they are having a sale, so i think i'll take my credit card out for a spin. nothing like some retail therapy to get your blood pumping, you know? i had the weirdest dream the night before last and i can't get it out of my head. i can't remember the specifics, i just have impressions, but i can't seem to forget them. i wondering if that means something. oh, well, ponderings best left to another day. Jenn posted at 6:04 PM | |
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it took me 25 minutes to do my final and i figured out that i could get 8 questions wrong and still get an a in the class. yes, that's right, an a! why? because i got a 158 out of 150 on my last speech -- i can't believe it! and some people wrote the nicest things on my comment sheets. makes a girl feel good. friends made me laugh and then nbc's commercial for next week's episode made me misty. it's hard to believe i've almost half my life with these characters and that in a few months, i'm not going to get to see them do anything new again. ::sigh:: oh, and i just want to say that "ocean's 11" is the coolest movie ever. no matter how many times i see it, it's just cool. besides any movie that combines las vegas, brad pitt and george clooney is pretty fab in my book. Jenn posted at 12:48 AM | |
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i just got my windsor prom catalog 2004. my prom was many years ago (::sigh::), but i still love to leaf through and see the beautiful gowns. sometimes i wish i was a deb or a celeb or something like that, so that i could afford to buy and have places to wear ball gowns because i just love them! carrie bradshaw has her obsession with shoes, i have prom dresses. Jenn posted at 1:45 AM |
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i woke up this morning with a blinding migraine and cramps like you wouldn't believe. i had to crawl out of bed to get to the phone to call in sick and crawl to the bathroom with blurry vision to find my medication. i fell asleep until afternoon. when i woke up, i was dizzy from lack of food, but otherwise feeling better. i worked on my speech until i got it "right" and made some garlic chicken medallions for dinner. i've given my last speech and i only have my final to take. i should have a solid b which makes me happier than i can say. i went into this class, scared and alone, hoping against hope for a c; just to pass and be done. but i know some things about speech writing and public speaking that should help me in my college career and beyond. i've always been more of a writer than a speaker, but while i still do not relish getting up in front of the class and talking, my hands don't get nearly as clammy and i don't feel like throwing up anymore. i'm not ready to start addressing congress or anything and i still feel like a writer and not a speaker, but i know that i can do it now. i need to do some reading for my final tomorrow, but i'm not worried about it. i did fine on the midterm and i know i can do the same for the final. i'm watching $40 a day right now and rachael's in tuscany and it's making me yearn to go to europe. it's so beautiful and it reminds me of the feelings i had when i watched "under the tuscan sun." it's so beautiful that it actually makes me want to cry. stupid, right? but it's true. Jenn posted at 1:10 AM | |
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am being a total slacker. i'm getting ready to go to sleep even though i haven't finished prepping my speech. i know i shouldn't count on having all day at work because i might have to work downstairs, but i just don't feel that pressured. even if i screw up royally tomorrow, i should still have a solid b according to my calculations, so i'm not really feeling the pressure. i just want to get a good night's sleep and i'll worry in the morning. Jenn posted at 3:35 AM | |
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"You want free speech? Let's see you acknowledge a man whose words make your blood boil who is standing center stage advocating at the top of his lungs that which you would spend a lifetime opposing at the top of yours." i just had a great, politically charged conversation with my parents. my dad even said that he could see me working in politics one day. and you know? i could too. there are so many issues that i feel so passionately about and i'm still idealistic enough to feel like i can make a difference. Jenn posted at 8:49 PM | |
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it's funny because it's true! "2. Any time the number of kids outnumbers the number of adults, and you don't have any kids yourself, there's a very good chance you're about to have a miserable time." Jenn posted at 5:21 PM | |
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"These people who contributed to who I am, they are with me wherever I go, and as history gets rewritten in small ways with each passing day, my love for them only grows. Because the truth is... it was the best of times. Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned, but all of that has receded into fond memory now. How does it happen? Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it's because we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we will never forget." Jenn posted at 2:44 AM | |
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i would like some major props please! i just changed my windshield wiper in the dark, in the rain and all by myself. i tried to change the passenger side one as well, but i couldn't get the catch to release to get the old one off. i shall try again in the morning. i love playing in the rain. the downpour has stopped and only a light rain remains. i've got the sliding door open and i love listening to the drops falling onto the balcony and the cars rushing by on the water-slicked roads. it reminds me of my junior year at asp. the air had been so heavy and oppressive since we had arrived at the center, with no air conditioning in the gym (the general hang out). the clouds could apparently bear no more and let loose a torrent rain shower. everyone ran out into the parking lot and just ran in circles, chasing each other until we were soaked to the skin. it was over almost as soon as it started and the air was much milder and easier to cope with that night. it was such a rush and so much fun! ah, the carefree days of our youth! Jenn posted at 11:55 PM | |
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this town is the only place on the planet where a guy would water his grass in the rain in the winter...::sigh:: Jenn posted at 9:03 PM | |
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