January 31, 2004 no shoes, but... okay, i'm back from shopping, and i have not bought any shoes. but i did make a few purchases: i also got my pictures developed (hopefully get a gallery together tonight) and bought a whole bunch of cards at hallmark. so i still feel productive ;) Jenn posted at 8:22 PM |

windy wow, the wind is whipping out there today. it knocked over my bike on the balcony and almost blown the cover off of it. i gotta get out there and get it all tied down again. i love the wind though. should mean that i'll be able to see the mountains tomorrow. the wind always blows all the smog and fog and whatever out of the air so you can see the mountains with snow on them. i love that! i finally finish the roll of film that has my dolphin photos on it, so hopefully i can get that developed today. i'm dying to see if any of them really came out the way i wanted ;) Jenn posted at 4:59 PM |

how lame how lame am i? i was watching the travel channel last night around eight and i must have fallen asleep on the couch until about 11am this morning. way to spend a friday night, right? oy. my parents and i actually had a really good conversation about my move to san francisco. it was really nice to be able to say all the things that i've been thinking about and know that they are thinking about them too and are receptive to my ideas. i mean, i'm not stupid, i know i'm going to need their help, but i am smart enough that i've done this a few times before and i know what works for me. it's nice to be evolving from the parent/child to friend/friend relationship with them. (i love when cable shows a commercial picture and runs another commercial's audio with it...especially when the picture is for the oxygen network and the audio is for medication for irritable bowel syndrome. too funny!) so now i'm watching 7th Heaven and thinking about getting a shower, getting dressed and getting to the mall to scope out the shoes. wish me luck ;) Jenn posted at 3:46 PM |

January 30, 2004 forever this day is going by so slowly. i feel like i've been here for six hours and yet, it's not even lunch time. i got more sleep last night than i have any night this week and yet i'm exhausted. i've got two hours till lunch and then two and half hours after that. at least it's friday and it's payday. i have to go shoe shopping this weekend. my great strappy heels are totally worn out and my cheap pumps from payless are starting to look really crappy. i need to get some more cute shoes. i hate wearing the same shoes day after day. i need more cute clothes too, but i think i'll just stick to shoes this time. i do want to see if that $98 skirt that i fell in love with at the republic has come down to a reasonable price. looking at the website, they have launch their spring collection, so i may be doing some clothes shopping after all. i love this dress although not in my price range yet. and this bracelet is totally cute. i've never really been a pink person (well, not since i was a little kid and had no choice in the matter), but i'm being drawn to it more and more now that it is the new hip color. my aunt gave me a pink dress shirt from the gap that i am currently wearing and i have subsequently painted my toenails a warm pink color as well (with sparkles). am i succumbing to the inevitable and becoming a girly girl? i hope not. Jenn posted at 2:00 PM |

textbooks ripoff 101 <--- damn straight! Jenn posted at 1:36 PM |

chet baker oh and can i just say, i love chet baker! i fell in love with his music when i fell for "playing by heart" and just hearing more of his stuff now on my vocal jazz station just makes me love him more. i have this strange passing thought about an apartment lit with candles and dancing in a black marilyn-monroe-in-seven-year-itch dress with a wonderful man to chet baker on the cd player. hmm... Jenn posted at 3:00 AM |

i wish it was friday this is why i love my laptop so much. i'm in my snuggly pajamas and tucked into bed, with nat king cole singing "that's all" on my music match jukebox and i can still write and post and read and such. i'm warming my feet and still able to have my time on the internet. i wish it was friday and i could just sleep in until 8 or so (trying to go to yoga again) instead of getting up at 6:30am. good news though that it's casual day, so i'm saved from the embarrassment of trying to find dress clothes that go together without having done laundry or gone to the dry cleaners. watched some of "return to me" after i watched the friends episode i taped and i remembered why i loved the script so much better than the actual movie. which is why i own the script and had to rent the film for my presentation tonight. Jenn posted at 2:56 AM |

wrap up well, the speech is over and i think i did okay. it felt much better and much more natural than last week's speech. my prof gave me quite a scare tonight though. at the end of class, he said he wanted to see a show of hands of who wanted the final postponed to the following tuesday, leaving next tuesday for a group activity and wednesday and thursday for our last speeches. of course, group a (who has to go on tuesday) wanted it postponed, but there were enough of us that didn't, that he decided to leave the schedule as is. i can't imagine dragging this mess out for another day. everyone that wanted it postponed was yelling that it would give them the weekend to study, but it's an open book final on a scantron. talk about laziness! Jenn posted at 2:26 AM

January 29, 2004 cheers some days are cheers days i feel like this quite a bit in this city. i'll never forget when i worked at kmc and i would go to jamba juice for lunch every day that i worked. one day i wore my hair down after getting it cut and each of the employees there commented on my new short hair. it was kinda crazy to get such personalized treatment in this big city. i'm on a first name basis with all of the delivery people that come here to the reception desk and we chat about various things. i don't know the names of my neighbors, but i do know all about the ups guy's kids and wife. the guy who works in the parking garage during the day is super sweet and puts a cone in my space to save it for me when i come back from lunch. sure, i won't ever see any of my friends no matter where i go, but there's a strange sense of community in this city of angels. Jenn posted at 6:02 PM

fantasy apartment i've been fantasy apartment hunting and i have found the most beautiful apartment! if only it would still be there when i am ready to move in six months...::sigh:: this one is pretty fab too! hopefully something just as wonderful will be around when i'm ready to rent. i've run through my speech a couple of times here at work and i feel good about it. it may be a tad short and scant on details, but at least when i embelish and ad lib (as i'm prone to do), i'm not going to worry about going over time. Jenn posted at 5:33 PM |

speech okay, i have finished my first draft of my speech. all i've got to do now is polish and practice. i think my video clip may be a tad long, but it's what i've got. to get to full picture you'd have to watch like 10 or 15 minutes of it, so i've got it narrowed down to a minute and 45 seconds. i just hope that this speech goes better than my previous one. Jenn posted at 4:41 AM |

Food Network: $40 a Day while working/procrastinating on my speech, i just caught this spectacular show on the food network, called $40 a day. the host is super cute, but not in an annoying way. she takes you to cheap, but cool, funky places to eat in the town that they're in and she has to do breakfast, lunch, dinner and nightlife for $40. it was really cool to see the town and also see great places to eat that won't set you back. she spent $5 on breakfast and i definitely wouldn't have had as much food as she did. i've never really watched the food network before, but i'm definitely going to be on the lookout for this show in the future. Jenn posted at 1:38 AM |

speech update i feel good about my speech even though it's not written and my outline's not done. i have it all in my head right now, so it's just a matter of getting it down on paper and saying it outloud. i'm not going to be tonight until it's finish. i'm not going to leave it until the last minute like my last speech because that turned out awful. i know in a few months i'll be begging for the endless papers and lectures and research to be over with, but right now i wish i was back in school and not working full time. i like being able to spend my time working on my school work when it's time and not trying to divide my time between work and school. it's so hard to stay up late working on my speeches and research and then get up and go to work in the morning all day and not think about it. last semester it was nice not having to go to class or write papers or anything. i could just go to work and come home. and before that when i worked part time, i would only work on a couple of days and go to class on the other days, never having eighteen hours of work and school in one day like now. i'll be glad when next thursday is over because that'll be the end of that. the end of my life at santa monica and working full time while trying to go to school. i'll be glad when this is all over. Jenn posted at 12:52 AM |

January 28, 2004 speech class i got an 89 on my informative speech and an 84 on my mid-term, so i feel very good going into my speech on thursday. i've got a primitive outline worked out and i'm hoping to get all the rest of it done tomorrow, so that all i have to do on thursday is practice and go to class. then it's one more speech next wednesday and the open book final on thursday. then i'm done, done, done!! i'm not sure why i'm still awake, but hopefully i can get to bed earlier than i have been lately. i'm going to need all my energy tomorrow to write my speech and work downstairs. Jenn posted at 3:30 AM |

January 27, 2004 perfect girl for someone who will never read this, but needs to hear it: don't worry you will find the answer if you let it go give yourself some time to falter but don't forgo knowing that you're loved no matter what and everything will come around in time "perfect girl" by sarah mclachlan Jenn posted at 3:37 AM |

January 26, 2004 positives it's almost too early for positives, especially considering when i went to bed: my new laptop caryn sent me flowers the luxurious white comforter back to being receptionist friends dvd tomorrow bree sharp cd booking the hotel for san francisco next month new episodes of sex and the city stace is coming to town! talking to kb talking to chris on im talking to ht on im the love of my friends and family Jenn posted at 9:40 AM

musings and lovings sex and the city tonight was so sweet in so many ways. i totally melted when smith grabbed the razor off the counter and started shaving his head for samantha. i thought he was a hottie with long hair, but he's even hotter with a shaved head. i got all melty when miranda looked out the window of the house in brooklyn too. i thought it was really funny that miranda forgot that she was married, and after she had her sweet moment, she went right back into miranda mode with the realtor. i really felt for charlotte, but i'm glad she got a dog even if it's not a baby. harry's really great for her, even though i still don't see the attraction. i still don't like carrie and the russian, but it seems like he's here to stay. i started to watch the golden globes tonight, but then i realized that i didn't care who won or lost. i could find out the results online since they had happened already and just go on with life. so i did. it was the first time that i haven't watched an award show with rapt attention. i just didn't care...perhaps i'm actually growing out of my media obsession. perhaps the end of friends is more than just the end of my favorite show. perhaps i'm moving past my fangirlieness and becoming...mature? nah, that can't be right! i talked to kb yesterday for the first time since he arrived in kc. i called him on wednesday night on the way home from class and that's when he called me back. we talked about trival things for about 20 minutes as he was on his way to an event. are we both trying to be casual to not make the other know how much we are hurting or is it just me? am i the only one who feels like they are floundering? i should be able to talk to him about this, shouldn't i? or is that part of the break up ettiquette? if we're going to be "just friends," we're not going to be real friends when it comes to things like this. i'm not used to being the one left behind. i do the leaving. i dumped stephen. i broke it off with ht. i moved 3300 miles away. i was planning on moving to san francisco. i don't do well being the one who's still here. i go to work and i go to class. i'm exhausted from both, though not so much work (more on that in a second), so i don't do anything all weekend which then feels wasted. whenever i watch shows like satc or whatever, whenever the girl is feeling low, her hip gal pals take her out and make her feel like she doesn't need men. but i don't have any hip gal pals here -- not that would do that. i have danielle, but she's married with kids and a demanding job, so it takes some planning to get together with her. we actually haven't seen each other since i left hpr. i never really feel comfortable around bethany and heather for a variety of reasons. same goes for rey for an entirely different set of reasons. so it's just me. which shouldn't be so bad. i mean, that's why i came here. to be just me, without preconceptions and other notions, but sometimes i miss having people around me that know something is wrong by the look on my face or the tone of my voice. oh, the work thing. so i sorta got demoted, but not really. i mentioned that i was going to be changing jobs in the company after the first of the year. well, joan and i had a chat on thursday when i got back from being sick and we both decided that since i'll be leaving this summer, it would be better for the department if i stayed on as the receptionist and they hired someone who is in it for the long term. i completely agree with her which is why when we first talked about it, i told her that i was applying to schools that weren't in the area, so i could be moving. i actually like not having responsiblities when it comes to people's welfare, just their phone calls. i like being able to leave at 4:30 on the nose and not have to stay overtime to finish a project or contemplate coming in on the weekends to work. i just want a stress free job, so i can be free to stress about school and moving and kb and all that junk. i'm having a weird conversation with chris right now, so i better stop blogging and start paying attention ;) Jenn posted at 1:13 AM

January 25, 2004 it's my map create your own visited country map or write about it on the open travel guide Jenn posted at 4:55 AM

January 24, 2004 silly survery found this at ashley's -- answer if you like. i figure most of the people who would comment and answer don't know me well enough and those who do, won't ;) 01: what is your first memory of me: 02: how long have we been friends: 03: tell about one memory we share together: 04: describe me in four adjectives: 05: if we could spend a day together what would we do: 06: name one thing you really don't like about me: 07: name one thing you really do like about me: 08: if you could give me a gift what would it be: 09: have we ever gotten in a fight & about what: 10: have we ever hugged: 11: have we ever danced with each other: 12: have you ever seen me cry: 13: have i ever offended you: 14: what is something embarrassing that i've done: 15: what do i usually look like when you see me: 16: what do i say all the time\whats my catch phrase: 17: do you think we will be friends in 5 years: 18: do you think i am bitchy: 19: has there been anything you wanted to tell me, but didn't: 20: what advice would you give me, in general: 21: wanna make out: 22: suggest a band / cd for me to listen to: 23: is there a song that reminds you of me: Jenn posted at 5:13 PM |

January 23, 2004 dear abby sometimes i love that dear abby cause she says the right thing at the right time: Nothing stays the same. Sometimes it gets better and better. Jenn posted at 3:25 AM |

caryn rocks my world i love you, caryn. you know why. Jenn posted at 2:27 AM |

January 21, 2004 Paul Simon Father And Daughter Lyrics i can't sleep and i'm listening to my music match radio. i just heard this song and think i want it to be my father/daughter dance at my wedding (whenever that is): i'm gonna watch you shine gonna watch you grow gonna paint a sign so you always know as long as one and one is two there could never be a father love his daughter more than i love you "Father and Daughter" by Paul Simon Jenn posted at 5:19 AM |

feeling better and productive okay, i'm feeling better and i've been productive this evening. i didn't go to class for fear that my dinner might not make it with me. just erring on the side of caution. i've set up my new lamps, changed the sheets on my bed, cleaned up and put away my christmas decorations in my closet, did a load of laundry so i have clothes to wear to work, organized my dry cleaning to take in and watched the state of the union. i'm taking a short break to have a small snack and relax. then it's back to cleaning and organizing as well as researching for my speech on thursday. Jenn posted at 12:15 AM |

January 20, 2004 positives even though i'm still sick: my new laptop getting the christmas tree taken down and all things christmas into boxes finding a bikini that is cute and affordable at vs.com getting the house cleaned up somewhat new lamps from home depot ordering the bree sharp cd with my amazon.com gift certificate friends episodes and reruns hbo and sex and the city getting my rebate in the mail on time for my phone getting admitted to sfsu having a good topic for my first graded speech organizing my magazines with the holders from ikea tv dvds research into places to visit in san francisco craigslist the love of my friends and family Jenn posted at 4:16 PM |

kevin james i can't help it. kevin james cracks me up. i have actual tears streaming down my face because i'm laughing so hard. it's just so true! Jenn posted at 1:56 AM |

January 19, 2004 awake can someone please tell me what i'm still awake? i've read fic, i've updated my website, i've watched an episode of the west wing, i've posted on my many message boards and yet, i'm still not tired. i think about how tired i will be in the morning and about the speech i have to write and deliver for thursday. a girl in my class gave me a good idea -- she's doing hers on an unusual hobby and i thought i'd do mine on bells. see if i can actually recite nancy's speech that i've heard so often. just have to find some sources to credit on my outline, though i feel like i know everything about them already. it's also the perfect way to incorporate an audiovisual aid (perhaps our christmas cd and compare with the raleigh ringers on malmark) for extra credit. i don't really feel like i'll need extra credit, but i like to do it just in case i totally bomb on of the speeches, you know? Jenn posted at 3:58 AM |

musings before sex and the city i thought i'd put down some of the things that are swirling in my head. i'm thinking of writing kb a letter. just kind of let him know what i'm thinking about things. that i'm sad sometimes when i'm in the car by myself and that most of everything i see reminds me of him. probably not the right kind of letter to write right now. i'll regret it later, i'm sure. perhaps i'll just write it in my paper journal and get it all out. i spent $50 on two new lamps and light blubs at home depot tonight. i spent over twice that much on groceries at ralphs (just for me). what is wrong with this picture? watching the end of sex and the city, i'm curious -- why do guys' overcoats always seem to fit them fine, but they are also big enough to tuck their girl into when she's cold? it worked for petrovsky and carrie, bridget jones and mark darcy, and on and on. and the real question -- where can i find a guy like that for me? yeah, yeah, it's too soon. i know that. but sometimes, i feel like it's too late. sure, i'm only 23, but how long can i keep saying that before it is too late? okay, i gotta shut up and finish putting the christmas tree lights away. or just sigh about being single again. Jenn posted at 12:01 AM |

January 16, 2004 states from amanda and katie: Bold - states I've visited Underline - ones I've lived in Italics - ones I've driven through/passed by 1) Alabama 2) Alaska 3) Arizona 4) Arkansas 5) California 6) Colorado 7) Connecticut 8) Delaware 9) Florida 10) Georgia 11) Hawaii 12) Idaho 13) Illinois 14) Indiana 15) Iowa 16) Kansas 17) Kentucky 18) Louisiana 19) Maine 20) Maryland 21) Massachusetts 22) Michigan 23) Minnesota 24) Mississippi 25) Missouri 26) Montana 27) Nebraska 28) Nevada 29) New Hampshire 30) New Jersey 31) New Mexico 32) New York 33) North Carolina 34) North Dakota 35) Ohio 36) Oklahoma 37) Oregon 38) Pennsylvania 39) Rhode Island 40) South Carolina 41) South Dakota 42) Tennessee 43) Texas 44) Utah 45) Vermont 46) Virginia 47) Washington 48) West Virginia 49) Wisconsin 50) Wyoming 51) Washington D.C. create your own visited states map or write about it on the open travel guide Jenn posted at 8:24 PM |

heart gone i just got back from kb's...i feel like my heart has been ripped out. i don't know how i'm going to make it through the day. Jenn posted at 10:06 AM |

January 15, 2004 movies from laura: imdb's top 100 movies -- these are the ones i've seen (and i've bolded the ones i own): 10) Citizen Kane 11) Star Wars Episode IV: A New Hope 18) The Usual Suspects 23) 12 Angry Men 27) It's a Wonderful Life 29) American Beauty 31) Sunset Blvd. 33) The Matrix 35) To Kill a Mockingbird 58. The Wizard of Oz 65) 2001: A Space Odyssey 75) Amadeus 78) On the Waterfront 91) Finding Nemo 93) Toy Story 2 94) The Princess Bride and the bottom 100: 66) Mac and Me i guess all the shitty movies i've seen are nothing compared to the shitty movies out there. Jenn posted at 1:50 AM |

sad times i just watched the friends cast on oprah from november that i hadn't seen until now. and they were talking a lot about that last week of the show, which is actually this week. and how sad they were going to be about leaving each other and the set and all that. it was hysterical and sad and it even made me like jennifer aniston a little bit...imagine that! kb and i spent our last night together tonight. i skipped class to do laundry and spend time with him. we had dinner at duke's in malibu and drove up the coast. it seems so crazy that this is really over. his last day of work is tomorrow. evan flies in tomorrow night and they are leaving at dawn on friday. and who knows if i'll ever see him again. it doesn't feel real. i was on the verge of tears today and i didn't really know why. i hadn't been thinking about kb being gone or anything, but everything seemed to frustrate me today. i realized that although i wasn't consciously thinking about it, my subconscious was. friday is going to be a hard day. it's not that i haven't been alone on the weekend before because i have and most of the time i really relish it. but it's knowing that i can't go over to ginger's to see if he wants to catch a movie or order a pizza. it's too quiet tonight. i've got the west wing on, but it's still too quiet. and i don't see it getting louder any time soon. Jenn posted at 1:25 AM |

January 12, 2004 eugenia! eugenia just made my day! eugenia (10:24:41 AM): you got in?? congratulations! Auto response from jenn (10:24:41 AM): out for a bit...shall be back later ;-) eugenia (10:25:14 AM): i'm going to go out and buy you a card! this calls for a celebration! you rock! Jenn posted at 3:04 PM |

January 11, 2004 song memories i was listening to my music match radio and "breakfast at tiffany's" by deep blue something came on. it reminded me of screaming that at the top of our lungs as we walked through the parisian streets on our european adventure. that and the sweater song. i just saw a commercial for the next episode of friends and it made me a little sad. i've got to get fangirlie for a second. the end is starting to be more and more apparent. i've been rather indifferent to it, scoffing at those who said they are going to cry, etc, but now i'm starting to feel it. i've been watching this show since i was in the 8th grade. since chris moved back and changed my life, both for better and for worse. since i had a notebook with lauren dana and we would fill it full of friends quotes that have become classics. now we don't even talk and i'm not sure how i would get in touch with her if i wanted to. i watched my tapes in my dorm room at tcu while i was packing up my stuff, fighting off my anxiety attack and waiting for my dad to come get me. i'd watch hours of reruns and tapes when i was lonely because i had no friends during my first years of college, living at home. whenever there was something crazy or stupid going on in my life, i could watch friends on thursday night and i would feel better. but that's all coming to an end...there's a lump in my throat. there just hasn't been a show since that i've fallen in love with like this show. first it was the x-files, then dawson's creek and now friends. shows that are becoming memories, not current fixes. when things get hard in san francisco, i won't be able to turn on a new episode of friends and see what stupid and wacky things that monica and chandler and ross and rachel and joey and phoebe are up to, making my life seem just a little more bearable, putting it in perspective. sure there's scrubs and the west wing, but i don't know them as episodically as i know friends. i can't quote them and remember episode names. and that's probably a good thing. it's time for me to move past my adolescent obsession with 'must see tv' and start using my powers for good. ::sigh:: well, it's time to hit the shower i suppose. indiannapolis just beat the chiefs and kb's crushed, but still taking me to disneyland one last time before my pass expires tomorrow. Jenn posted at 4:18 PM |

January 10, 2004 updated this is hopefully the last design change for a while. i'm now sporting SFSU (and lbss, ironically!) colors to show my pride for my new school! i don't care if it's total cheeseball...i'm just totally excited about moving and school and a new life and a new start and just everything! i've been a total sloth today, but i'm hoping to get a few things done (like finish my christmas cards - i know!). now the debate on what to have for dinner...roast beef or chicken? hmmm....i guess whatever's on top in the freezer wins ;) Jenn posted at 11:51 PM |

January 9, 2004 it's not in vain i've been surfing craigslist for the past couple of months, just wanting to see what's out there. but now it has a purpose. i'm actually looking for a real apartment and a real job. it's a good feeling. no longer in limbo, but having a definite plan. i'm acutally going to get my degree. i won't have to apply to school again. i'm going to be finished. my speech went pretty well tonight. there were definitely people who were worse than me like kristin had said, so that totally helped. i actually talked to a couple of girls in class today. maybe it's not going to be as bad as i thought. Jenn posted at 1:37 AM |

January 8, 2004 i can't believe it! my day just got so much better!!! check this out: Congratulations on your admission to SFSU for the Fall 2004 semester. You were conditionally admitted on January 06, 2004. this is just so fantastic! it's a huge weight lifted off my shoulders. well, almost. it's conditional depending on my completion of my speech course and it says on my completion of english composition. i used my ap score for that one, so i've emailed admissions to find out about that one. so i guess they found my check and got my smc transcripts after all. my hands are actually shaking now. i'm moving to san francisco in august. august 25th, i will be starting classes at sfsu. it's real now. this speech class has purpose. i feel like i'm moving forward. it's scary, but true. and i can't share it with anyone right now. kb isn't answering his phone and it's too late to call my parents. i'm bursting to tell someone, so fellow readers, you're it ;) feel special! Jenn posted at 1:36 AM |

speech update well, i've got a brief outline of my speech done and i've written some of it. i had time between my time in the bookstore and when class started, so i went to the brand new library to read for class and work on my speech. it's awesome (the library that is)...and they now have internet hookups at and power outlets at all the study stations, so you know i'm bringing the laptop to school tomorrow ;) then when i get to class, my prof says that a normal speaking rate is about 120-150 words per minute, so we should have about 450 words. i count my write up and i've got 180. so, back to writing and embellishing for me. i met some nice girls during our group activity so i don't feel so alone in the class. the prof keeps speaking of friendly faces, but now i finally have some. maybe i'll even make some gal pals before the class is over. i figured out how to program my new vcr today and i'm recording the west wing as i type. so as i sit in my pile of bills and unfolded laundry, i take pride in the fact that i mastered technology today. perhaps tomorrow i'll finally finish my christmas cards and take down the rest of my christmas tree. Jenn posted at 12:55 AM |

January 7, 2004 tired of it man, i'm exhausted. and i feel like i've done nothing today. i went to work. i went to borders to buy a calendar. went to ralphs to pick up supplies. came back to the apartment to pick up my backpack. had a few bites of crumb cake. left for class. had class until 8:45. kb brought dinner from mcd's. went celebrity poker challenge and queer eye for the straight guy. i helped kb pack up some of the stuff he has at my place and then managed to piss him off by an off handed comment i made about him being my visual aid for my speech class. i dunno if it's the break up or the moving or what, but it hasn't really been fun the past couple of days. he came back on sunday and it and it totally screwed with my whole plan for the day. is that wrong of me to think that? i should have been happy and i was, but i was kinda mad too. my emotions are completely wacked. okay, i've got my first speech on thursday. it's a 3 minute autobiographical speech and it's not graded. but i have no idea what i should talk about. my life is so boring. any suggestions?? Jenn posted at 2:43 AM |

January 4, 2004 novel well, i got my zip drive at circuit city and 2 and a half zip disks of material from my desktop which i have now transfered to my laptop. i went to ikea and got six wine glasses, a quilt (more on that in a second), a new rug, a new san francisco poster, magazine holders, and napkins. i was watching see jane date before i went to ikea and i saw the luxurious white sheets and comforter that all single women living in new york in their thirties seem to have in the movies and on tv. i saw a great fluffy white comforter at ikea for $20 and thought 'what the hell?' so now i'm hip with a white comforter that will surely get messed up with something in the next 72 hours because i'm a total klutz and quite messy. i also went to best buy and got bridget jones' diary and dawson's creek: complete second season. of course, i'm totally pissed that they've changed like 75% of the music because the music was as much a character as pacey or jen. anyhoo...oh and i got groceries, so i can finally eat normal meals again. i opened my novel again and started writing again. nanoedmo is coming up and i would love to have my completed novel to work with then. i'm even toying with submitting it for publication this summer. silly, i know! i'm not a writer no matter how much i want to be. but hey, i could get lucky ;) Jenn posted at 4:17 AM |

January 3, 2004 productive okay, i've got a new layout...what do you think? tomorrow i'm going to apply it to the whole site, so that should be fun...NOT! i'm actually going to be productive today. i am going to find my check book. i am going to fuss with my desktop computer until i can get all the files that i want downloaded. i am going to best buy and get a peripheral zip drive for my laptop. i am going to ikea and get some furniture and such on sale. i need at least two new lamps and perhaps a new rug. i haven't decided yet. i'm going to clean at least one room in my apartment from top to bottom. i am going to unpack both suitcases. i am going to finish undecorating for christmas and get it all put away. but first, i am going to shower. mmm, shower... Jenn posted at 4:20 PM |

i want to be fearless. i want to be bold. what's stopping me? i'm getting nervous about my oral comm class starting next week and i'm wondering why. i shouldn't be nervous. the class is supposed to teach us how to speak in front of people. i'm not naturally good at that, but hopefully, the grade will be based on trying as much as good performance. any suggestions on how i should get through it? Jenn posted at 1:16 AM |

January 2, 2004 Caryn i hope you have a beautiful birthday and i'm sorry i can't be with you tonight. have a great time anyway! your card is in the mail ;) Jenn posted at 9:53 PM |

okay, i'm going to see win a date with tad hamiliton tonight. they got to me and now i'm going to spend my hard earned cash on this movie. oh well! maybe it will be good...like bring it on and blue crush...we shall see! Jenn posted at 6:11 PM |

john henson the john henson project i went to the longest taping ever a couple of years ago for his pilot for abc which subsequently never aired. i guess he's resurfaced on spike tv. i can't wait to see it! i've been a fan for so long! Jenn posted at 5:57 PM |

make someone's day starring me! hey, look! it's me! Jenn posted at 1:47 PM |

frustrated i still can't find my checkbook. i tried my computer again while i was on the phone with my parents. it came on normally, so i hurridly got off the phone so i could download all my files onto zip disks. by the time i got off the phone and went back into the bedroom, it had frozen and wouldn't restart normally again. this is driving me crazy. i just want to get my files and get out. i hope that maybe tomorrow will be my lucky day. Jenn posted at 1:38 AM |

resoluitions? a faceitious look at new year's resolutions Jenn posted at 12:11 AM |

January 1, 2004 update now i'm dividing my time between the 7th heaven marathon and the queer eye for the straight guy marathon...i love new years! Jenn posted at 6:02 PM |

new year it's now 13 plus hours into the new year and i've really enjoyed it. i'm sitting on my couch watching movies on hbo (my big fat greek wedding and the mighty ducks, so far) and my favorite old sitcoms on lifetime (the nanny and mad about you). i'm lounging around and eating twix bars and m&ms. ah, this is the life. i woke up at 11am to mr. deeds -- guess i fell asleep during the sex and the city marathon last night. i'm very much looking forward to not going to work tomorrow or the next day or the day after that. hopefully, i can get the place cleaned up and some groceries bought. i've got a few projects (call them new year's resolutions if you like) that i want to start, but i need a good environment to do them in. Jenn posted at 4:21 PM |

the end of the year a little survey stolen from laura: 1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before? i wrote a novel. i didn't finish it, but i wrote 16,000 more words for one project than i ever had before. 2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i didn't make any that i can tell, so i guess i had no problem keeping them. i do have a few for next year. we'll see how that goes. 3. Did anyone close to you give birth? sal, jessica, erin c., erin g., lily and arpy...there was something in the water. glad i didn't drink it! 4. Did anyone close to you die? alex, mr. hemma and guinea-winnie (my cousins' guinea pig) 5. What countries did you visit? as much as i wanted to, i didn't leave the country this year. here's to overseas travel in 2004! 6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003? i would like to have more freedom and more confidence. i would to have more friends living in the same place that i live. i would like to have a plan for the next few years of my life that includes a four year college. 7. What date(s) from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? march 20th, april 22nd, september 23rd, december 5th 8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? going with the old stand by of graduating from college 9. What was your biggest failure? i don't really feel like i've failed much this year. i mean, i've had rough times, but i don't feel like a failure. 10. Did you suffer illness or injury? i was sick once in february and once in september, but other than that, i don't remember really being sick. 11. What was the best thing you bought? my favorite new things were bought for me, so i guess i'd have to say my new work clothes. i feel very adult. 12. Whose behavior merited celebration? chris 13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? olen 14. Where did most of your money go? utilities according to quicken. 15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? my new desk and my new laptop. also finally being done with this part of college. 16. What song will always remind you of 2003? "in the club" by because it played every four seconds on power 106 while i worked at hpr. 17. Compared to this time last year, are you: i. happier or sadder? happier, which is strange considering the circumstances. ii. thinner or fatter? definitely fatter. no question. iii. richer or poorer? richer 18. What do you wish you'd done more of? going out on my own and exploring. work always leaves me so tired that i never work out or go do interesting things. 19. What do you wish you'd done less of? lay around on the couch and watch bad television 20. How did you spend Christmas? at my grandparents house of course ;) 21. Did you fall in love in 2003? i'm going to go with yes for this one. 22. How many one-night stands? that would be none. 23. What was your favorite TV program? made or queer eye for the straight guy 24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? yeah, i hate kathy now and i hadn't met her last year, but i'm sure i would have hated her if i had known her last year. 25. What was the best book you read? tara road by maeve binchy 26. What was your greatest musical discovery? don't laugh, but hilary duff 27. What did you want and get? a new desk and a laptop, furniture for the balcony, another job, a diploma 28. What did you want and not get? acceptance to a four year school, a lasting relationship, fashion sense 29. What was your favorite film of this year? it's a tie between lost in translation and spellbound 30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? i turned 23 this year and this is what i did. 31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? i would say getting into college, but perhaps that wouldn't have made me happy. i don't know if there's anything that would have made me immeasurably more happy. 32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003? some sort of combination between clothes i've had since high school and la chic. probably not a very good combination either. 33. What kept you sane? kb and my writing 34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? while i was thinking about this question, i didn't really have a celebrity that i fancied. when you live among them, it's hard to have a serious crush. 35. What political issue stirred you the most? the recall, most definitely. i even thought of running for political office. how crazy is that?! 36. Who did you miss? my friends, my family, fly...lots of people. 37. Who was the best new person you met? danielle, hands down. she's the sister i never knew i needed! 38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003. when God closes a door, he opens a window. but you have to looking out for the window instead of complaining about the draft. 39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. The world looks good from where I stand [...] Let the party begin/I’m feeling good inside my skin/The world at my command - "Girl In The Band" by Haylie Duff Jenn posted at 2:54 AM |