May 30, 2003 Lately I'm feeling Like a little girl Day dreaming of being safe in your arms "Ready For Your Love" by Chantal Kreviazuk Jenn posted at 10:44 AM |

I'm wearing my spiffy red dress today and I parked on Venice. I got honked at three times before I got to the sidewalk from my car...I guess that means it's going to be a good day, right? Jenn posted at 10:39 AM |

Well, I was going to fix the design of my photo log, do laundry, shop for KB's birthday present and take a nap tonight. Instead I ended up watching Dr Quinn and chatting with my co-workers on AIM until time for bed...I may not have gotten a lot done, but it sure was fun! Jenn posted at 2:26 AM |

May 29, 2003 There's nothing like being on AIM with your co-workers and discussing which of your male co-workers you was have sex with...seriously! Jenn posted at 8:36 PM |

May 28, 2003 Pondering of the moment: While KB and I were in the car on Monday driving home from Huntington Beach, we got to talking about the mental images we have for our minds. He said that whenever he has a problem, he imagines that there is a boardroom with a bunch of men in suits coming in, saying "What are we going to do about this?" Mine on the other hand is more like a Gidget/60s beach party and when there's a problem, you can hear the record scratch and the music stop until the problem is fixed. What's your inner image? Jenn posted at 10:47 AM |

So many thoughts flitting through my head...can't concentrate on them now. We got AIM at work, so feel free to hit me up during the daytime. Man, I'm just so sore, but I feel good that I'm sore because it means that I'm really workin' it ;) Jenn posted at 1:52 AM |

May 27, 2003 One last blog before I hit the sack While watching Surf Girls tonight, I saw an Army commercial that brought me to tears. Hopefully, my emotions about the military are just being brought to the forefront because Chris's ship should have docked today and not because I'm becoming a crazy, silly, crying girl. Let's hope ;) Jenn posted at 2:20 AM |

I feel so ahead of schedule today...not working at the office has really helped me out somehow...even though I was gone the same amount of time. Go figure! I've got the prayer digest out on time for the first time in weeks, did laundry till my quarters ran out and only have to fold and put away, took out the trash and made my bed, and then ate dinner. Instead of exhausted like I usually feel at this time of night, I feel energized! Funny story. So, I have this crazy neighbor downstairs. Anyway, I'm watching 7th Heaven and I realize it's time to go downstairs and change the laundry loads. As I pass by my downstairs neighbor's apartment, I can hear that she's watching 7th Heaven too! Small world! Jenn posted at 12:55 AM |

May 26, 2003 Watch out Sporty Spice -- here comes Jenn! I biked six miles today and I'm about to finish my fitness regiment for today. I'm doing 100 situps and 50 pushups every other day until I'm strong enough to do them every day. I feel very good about myself, though my butt is totally sore from the bike seat. Jenn posted at 11:01 PM |

participation positives: a better way to start Monday cleaning the apartment doing my own workout on Saturday after skipping yoga watching Blue Crush watching Center Stage shopping in Old Pasadena talking with Tyler about the future e-mail from Mrs. M sleeping in because there's no work today! paying all my bills out of one check and still have money left over knowing that next week's check is free and clear! being a good citizen when Vicky's sent me too many pairs of yoga pants in the mail having new yoga pants and a new yoga shirt driving back on MC and PCH being active this weekend in spite of the weather talking to Caryn about Vegas finding someone who understands by Europe yearnings the love of my friends and family Jenn posted at 1:53 PM |

May 25, 2003 after everything...to be so close...and yet, not home yet... Jenn posted at 11:41 PM |

Had a fab time in Old Town Pasadena. Had some sun in the afternoon since there was none to be had on the coast. Great drive back on Malibu Canyon and PCH. I'm so glad tomorrow is a holiday! Jenn posted at 10:58 PM |

May 23, 2003 I'm finding it hard to believe that California didn't make the top 10 Shout out to the Outer Banks though! OBX forever!! Jenn posted at 3:33 PM |

Wow, I had so much fun last night! There were so many unique things about this experience...even if they were only unique to me. I watched my guy, David Eckstein, warm up and keep true to his reputation of not being able to stand still AT ALL! Even after all the rest of the guys were in the dugout, #22 is still bouncing around out there in front of it. I got a taste of home during the National Anthem. In Baltimore, during the National Anthem, at the line Oh, say did that star-spangled banner yet wave, you say "OOOHH!" because the Orioles are nicknamed the O's. Well, last night as we were going through the National Anthem, there was a very small, but vocal group from Baltimore on the other side of the stadium that "OOHH!" with all their might at that part. Made me smile. I got to see some fabulous hitting from both teams and my boy did much better on this outing with a single and a ground rule double! Eek! Of course that was when things were good. In the last couple of innings, things didn't look good for the Angels through no fault but their own. Big 'ol GA didn't run for the ball that could have easily ended the inning and as a result the score went to 4-3. Our seats were above and to the right of the bullpen, giving me the extreme pleasure of watching two of my favorite pitchers warm up, Brendan Donelly and Troy Percival. During the 8th inning, Percy was pitching so fast that you could hear the crack of the ball in the glove even over the din of the crowd. As the 9th inning began, they opened the gate at the back of the field and we gave him a standing ovation. He walked across the field like a pimp and I revelled in the fact that I was going to see "Percy, Percy, show no mercy" in action live. Then he walked the first batter. And the second batter. The third batter got a single while I was in the bathroom, leaving the bases loaded. As I walked down to the team store, the fourth batter hit a grand slam, now leaving the score 7-4 Baltimore. They brought Frankie in to finish the job and finally the inning was over. Instead of witnessing the 8th saved game by Percy, I got to see his first blown save of the season. I guess that's something. Jenn posted at 10:45 AM |

May 22, 2003 Well, today's the day ;) Actually, it's a couple things. First, the happy, then the sad. Tonight I've got 3rd base line seats to the Angels/Orioles game tonight. I'm so excited for the game! My two favorite teams are playing each other, so no matter what, I win! Of course, today is also one month since Alex died. It's hard to believe...a whole month has gone by and yet it feels like six. God be with his family and his friends. Jenn posted at 10:53 AM |

May 21, 2003 Weigh In: Craziness What's the craziest workout and/or diet you've ever tried? I've never really dieted or exercised before this. This is my first experience at trying to lose weight and get the figure I remember. I don't think I'm disciplined enough to do any of those crazy diets anyway. Jenn posted at 8:52 PM |

I guess this explains my need to write today. Expressing yourself will be important today, Jennifer. It's a day rich in your own 3-essence. Not only is expression going to be a need, but being heard will also be. Yours is known for being the social number - the one that knows how to have fun. But even you have a serious side that needs to be recognized. Use your creativity to find ways to speak your heart and mind, such as through music, paint, or even the written word, Three. Jenn posted at 11:34 AM |

desire to run I keep wanting to write a long rambling post, but so far I haven't the energy or time to make it happen. Two years ago today, Mom and I packed up the Saturn and started driving south until we got to Atlanta for a night with Adam. That's how my journey here began. Seems like so long ago and yet it's hard to believe that I've lived here for two years already. Three years ago yesterday, we said goodbye to another friend. This time, he died of a brain tumor at the ripe age of 20. Wes said those words which will stick with me forever. Six months after we buried Andy, we had to do it again for Josh. I can still the tear-stained faces that passed me along the aisle as they left the service, crying for Josh, crying for Andy and Joe, crying for ourselves at having lost another one and further cementing the "curse of the Class of 1998." And then I read about Katie's fabulous German adventure and know that Anna and HT are going on European adventures as well and I wish that I could have one too. People say that the life I'm living now is an adventure, but it doesn't feel like one. True, LA is like a foreign country sometimes, but it's just my life now. It's not a great mystic place with new sights to behold and adventures to have. It could, I suppose, as could anyone's normal life, but it's not the same as the wondrous stories and photos that come from European adventures. Perhaps if I ever graduate from college, I shall get to have one myself. Jenn posted at 11:33 AM

Census: Los Angeles Area Fastest Growing I was one of those 782 on a day not too far off from this one in 2001...how time flies by! Jenn posted at 1:39 AM |

"You kids have been here far too much." If you know where that is from, then you know what I've been thinking of. And if you don't, well, it's been far too long a day for me to explain tonight. Perhaps the morning will yield some clarity and at the very least, some energy. Jenn posted at 1:29 AM |

May 20, 2003 Such a pretty woman You were hiding out in the open Searching so hard For a kiss that lasts forever There on the boulevard "Julia" by Chantal Kreviazuk Jenn posted at 9:12 PM |

May 19, 2003 participation positives: a better way to start Monday Venice canals Danielle calling to yell at me about yoga doing sit ups on my own dressing up for work getting along with all my co-workers reviewing Dawson's Creek: The Finale...up soon not ordering "like a girl" on Saturday night catching A Different World seeing Bend It Like Beckham again and loving it even more the second time cleaning the bathroom getting my tax refund check in the mail depositing said refund in the bank finding a new magazine to subscribe to being able to see the end of the Dawson's Creek finale even though my tape ran out taking too many pictures and not caring e-mails from sweet people the love of my friends and family Jenn posted at 9:47 PM |

I had a great afternoon visiting the Venice Canals. Go to the gallery for photos of the gorgeous houses and scenery. Jenn posted at 4:15 AM

May 17, 2003 I overslept this morning and missed yoga. I heard my phone ring as I started to wake up and notice what time it was, so I'm sure it was Danielle calling to yell at me ::grins:: I'm listening to the new Chantal Kreviazuk CD that, while only released in the US on April 22nd, I got at Barnes & Noble for $11.99. The new Jack Johnson CD however was $18.99...so I guess it's all about who is considered popular. Fine by me though since I got a fabulous CD for a steal! I'm thinking about going to San Diego tomorrow because Chantal is opening for Jason Mraz. I don't care about Jason, but I've been trying to see Chantal live for ages and she's usually in Canada. I now own all of her albums that were released in the United States: Jenn posted at 3:20 PM |

May 16, 2003 MSN numerology for today: Take some time for yourself to think today, Jennifer. The essence of a 7-vibration will encourage you to do this, especially if you're worn out to begin with. This can help a lot to make things easier for you when it comes to your busy schedule. It isn't uncommon for a Three personality to concern themselves with doing rather than pondering, but you can't go on like that forever. Curl up with a good book, rent a flick, or hit the sack earlier tonight for a little extra sleep. Make the most of the opportunity to really unwind for a while. That's exactly what I was planning on doing tonight....spooky! Jenn posted at 10:55 AM |

my real age is 25.7 Jenn posted at 1:58 AM |

Well, the soreness in my back is finally starting to go away as is the bruised spine feeling. Of course my moon cycle started today, so I've got a whole other set of ailments. Oh well. So the new receptionist didn't show up today. Very not cool. I was so looking forward to not having to answer the fucking phone all fucking day, but whatever. At least I have a good desk nows, so I'm not constantly borrowing other people's stuff. Oh and D signed up for school -- I'm so proud! ::tear:: ::grins:: Love ya girl! Jenn posted at 1:17 AM |

May 15, 2003 this cracks me up ;) Jenn posted at 9:08 PM |

May 14, 2003 Some nights don't go as you expect and they end up much better than you could imagine. At 6:25 yesterday I set off on my daily routine: drive to SMC, park, walk to class, lecture starting at 6:45, break around 8:00, lecture, home by 10:00, fall into bed exhausted. Well, I got there at 6:40 and did a little writing to pass the time before the prof would start class. I noticed that the table in front hadn't been moved to the center like my prof usually did and he was nowhere to be found. Figuring he was running a little late, I just kept writing. About 7:00, he still hadn't showed and we started to circulate a sign in sheet to prove that even though he didn't show up, we did. By 7:15 I was on my way home. On my voicemail was a message from Chris. Turns out he's proving me wrong and actually coming to visit me this summer. He and Olen are planning on coming out for a few days in the middle of July. I'm positively giddy over here at that thought and I can't wait! We talked for about 45 minutes before it was time for him to hit the sack. So even though I didn't get my test back, I still had a pretty good night! Jenn posted at 11:03 AM |

Weigh In: Previous to trying to lose weight/get fit has there ever been a time in your life when you felt really good about your body? Probably my sophomore year of high school. I was still in pretty good shape from my cheerleading experience and I was still taking gym class. As much as I hate to admit it, PE kept me in good shape, even though I wasn't a good athlete. The warm ups every other day really kept me in peak condition and I was active because even if I wasn't participating in the activity, you still had to keep in constant motion by walking around the blacktop or the track. Walking for an hour and a half will keep the pounds off -- especially combined with the walking the length of the building and such changing classes seven times a day. Beginning of junior year was pretty good too cause I was still fit from all my work during the summer, plus I got contacts and a fab new hair cut which really raised my self-esteem and in turn my body image. Without PE though, I started to gain weight, though not at the rate I do now. All my activities and the distance between classes kept me moving whereas now, I sit at my desk all day...not exactly conducive to weight loss. Jenn posted at 9:15 AM |

May 13, 2003 Okay, so I'm now totally addicted to Surf Girls on MTV. I'm addicted to women's surfing in general, though I'm not sure why. Perhaps to give some credibility to the surf brands I'm sporting most days. Those girls have my utmost respect...I wish I could be as physically fit as they are...maybe one day I will be. Jenn posted at 9:23 PM |

Oh, wow, I'm totally sore from yoga! Last night was the hardest workout I've had yet and while I loved most of it, I'm totally feeling it today. She had us do this one thing where we pull our knees up to our chest and roll on our spine. Well, my spine sticks out and so I feel totally bruised and in a lot of pain because of that. We did do a fabulous Irish dancer exercise that I think I'm going to try at home between classes. I was fabulously sweaty all night and I loved it! I think I'm going to buy a sticky mat with my next paycheck, so I can do yoga with her video at home too. Jenn posted at 11:06 AM |

I'm jaded, and you're beautiful I'm deluded, and I'm envious of you You're carin' that I'm hurtin' But I'm laughin' 'cause I'm lyin' And you believe what I say to be true This is the way God made me "God Made Me" by Chantal Kreviazuk Jenn posted at 9:50 AM |

May 12, 2003 participation positives: a better way to start Monday lazy weekend going to yoga tonight felt good when I work up even if I only got a few hours sleep sleeping in on Saturday sleeping in on Sunday getting a promotion at work finally having a chance to mail the meaningful present for a very good friend fat paycheck on Friday with overtime looking at plane fares for 4th of July weekend enjoying A Night at the Roxbury on DVD really enjoying my guilty pleasure, the 90210 reunion special finding a new delivery place down the street Jenn posted at 11:21 AM |

Thanks lisa for linking to me ;) How ever did you find me? Jenn posted at 3:35 AM |

I was born on the shores of the Chesapeake Bay But Maryland and Virginia have faded away And I keep thinking tomorrow is coming today So I am endlessly waiting "St. Robinson In His Cadallac Dream" by Counting Crows Jenn posted at 1:18 AM |

May 11, 2003 Well, I learned an important lesson on Friday that I think most everyone else would know and I should know: If you pay $7 for an eyebrow wax...it's not going to be quality! OMIGOSH! It was like the worst pain ever! The wax wasn't hot enough and she didn't do enough by waxing. She did like three strips and then started plucking! If I want my eyebrows plucked...I'd do it myself! At one point, I was bleeding! The eyebrows look fine now, but I'll never make that mistake again! Jenn posted at 1:47 PM |

May 8, 2003 As I watched the next to last episode of Dawson's Creek after class tonight, I was reminded of something I once read and saved from Caryn's blog. I hope you don't mind me quoting you dear ;) And something that a friend tells you reminds you of the days of "the real ones" and all the fights you had, and still have, but you know in the end, that everything's going to be alright, because you just don't want your friend to get hurt. And history proves that everything between you will be okay in the end, because it always has. Life is just funny like that sometimes. Jenn posted at 2:37 AM |

May 6, 2003 I was there When you shone as bright as Bethlehem from afar I was there When you were young and strong and perverted And everything that makes a young man a star Oh, you were a star I was there And I swear to God and on my mother's grave On everything I have or ever will embrace I was there And I saw it with my own two eyes And now it's all around me, it's all around me I'm surrounded And now it's all around me, it's all around me You surround me like a circle "Surrounded" by Chantal Kreviazuk Jenn posted at 11:15 AM |

I was listening to a conversation yesterday while I was sitting here working and it really made me think. One of the guys in the shop is getting married and flew to DC last weekend to meet some of his fiancee's family in Great Falls. The way he described things was very LA to me because I had never thought of them in that way. He described Georgetown as an old town where you feel like you've just stepped back into time and there should be men with powdered wigs walking around. I've always thought of Georgetown as the hip and trendy/expensive part of DC where there's no parking, uppity 20/30somethings and a great little mini-mart that my parents buy their Powerball tickets at. I dunno...there was more, but I'll save that for another time. Just struck me as odd cause I never thought about thinking about those places in that way. Jenn posted at 11:14 AM |

May 5, 2003 My MSN numerology sounds good :) Dust off your party shoes this week, Three, because life is about to become a lot more fun. Joy and good times will be in abundance. Don't pass up any invitations. You might even decide to throw a party for your friends. Be careful not to overspend and create problems for yourself, but if money is tight, create your own fun. This week features an upbeat joyous vibration full of little surprises. Follow your hunches, because as usual, they are probably correct. Jenn posted at 1:29 PM |

participation positives: a better way to start Monday going to see two movies by myself fabulous time at yoga going to lunch after yoga feeling like I have gal pals for a few hours sleeping in on a Sunday buying new pillows for my living room shopping for and buying a meaningful present for a very good friend being able to afford both purchases without worry about my bank account being active on Saturday even though I didn't have anyone with me getting e-mails from Chris again finding out that Chris will be home by the end of the month having a barbecue at work today for Cinco de Mayo enjoying What a Girl Wants a little more than I should but not caring cause I was by myself and didn't have to justify myself to anyone dressing up for myself learning how to do new things at work calling Anna out of the blue and just chatting because we can reading some fabulous fiction seeing part of a cute movie on fX Jenn posted at 10:54 AM |

May 4, 2003 I recently heard on the radio that there was a recent study that women do their best thinking in the shower or with their girlfriends (men apparently do theirs on the toilet...go figure). It must be true because while showering today, I started thinking about some of the strangest things and I thought I should blog about at least one of them. Yesterday was May 3rd. That sounds a little obvious and of course, it is, but for a good part of my life that date was associated with something else. May 3rd is Lauren's birthday only now, it's not a date I should know. We haven't spoken in almost 3 years. But for seven years, she was one of my best friends...we had a notebook together, we had classes together, we did the sleepover thing and I even housesat for her parents when they went on vacation. But now, it's over between us. We aren't friends. The why is pretty easy to understand. She went to college and got involved with some girls who happened to be with a sorority which she then decided to pledge and be a part of. I didn't approve because I saw her changing and in my opinion, not for the better. It was all about money and status and labels and clothes and alcohol instead of the things that we had loved together as a group of friends in high school. So I said bad things about her to our mutal friends, who were also not happy with her, but I'm sure those things got back to her as well. The e-mails and the IMs stopped, as they did with most of the people I knew who went to college, but so did the phone calls during breaks and coffee at Starbucks. She's still on my buddy list and I check her away messages from time to time. I see that she's going to law school in the fall, a far cry from her plans when she entered college. I'm not really even sure that I miss her or even the idea of her as much as I think about how she's become another one of those people that I'll think about every few years and wondering where they are and what they are doing. And I'm sure there will be a meeting at the reunion and she'll be showing off her husband and career and probably a kid or two and I'll be showing off my career, hiding my lack of relationship or children. There'll be pleasantries exchanged and a polite hug perhaps. One of us will make an excuse to go see someone else that we "just haven't seen for ages" and that'll be it. Just a blip on the radar, disappearing before one can really even be sure it's there. Perhaps that's what our whole friendship was. Jenn posted at 10:18 PM |

Wow, I had a fabulous day yesterday! I don't think there's anything quite as satisfying as dressing up for yourself and having hands full of shopping bags as you walk through the mall. I mean, in many respects, I don't really think I'm that girly, but I do have a slight shopping addiction that got fed yesterday. I got new pillows for the couch on sale at Restoration Hardware (in the style neighborhood as this, but really not this ugly) and a new pillow for the chair at Pottery Barn (this one in a mauve/burgundy color) and a present for a good friend of mine. I also went to TWO movies BY MYSELF -- a victory for me because I had never done that before. I saw What A Girl Wants and The Lizzie McGuire Movie yesterday. Although I ended the Amanda Bynes outing more than the Hilary Duff one, both had the same feel-good, girl power message that girls can have fabulous adventures, reach their goals and still get the fabulously handsome guy. And I'm such a sucker for those movies -- I leave feeling like I can rule the world...or at least have a fabulously handsome guy who says all the right things for myself. I guess we'll just have to wait and see about that. Jenn posted at 4:27 PM |

May 1, 2003 California Cities Top List of Nation's Smoggiest Wow, there's a shocker! :) Jenn posted at 4:46 PM |

My horoscope for today: It could be that you find yourself in a situation where you need to choose whether or not to make a commitment to a relationship. Old demons may come back to haunt you, renewing doubts and creating fears about a lack of freedom. At all costs, ignore these demons! If you give in to them, you are likely to lose a lot of ground. Be courageous and make a decision all on your own! I will be strong today! Jenn posted at 12:38 PM |