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and all her friends tell her she's so pretty but she'd be a whole lot prettier if she smiled once in a while 'cause even her smile looks like a frown she's seen her share of devils in this angel town but, everything's gonna be all right seems like everyone here's got a plan it's kind of like Nashville with a tan "Lullaby" by Shawn Mullins Jenn posted at 11:55 AM | |
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Weigh In: Enjoying the Change What have you started enjoying in your quest to lose weight or get in shape? First and foremost, I am enjoying actually doing something proactive instead of just whining about my body and being digusted when I put on a bathing suit. But it's more than that. I'm happy to be bonding with my co-workers and really making some great gal pals in LA. The workout is tough and I love the sweaty feeling of a good workout. And it's also spirtually cleansing to do the mediations she prepares for us and I really feel fulfilled after class spiritually as well as physically. I'm eating better and I think that is really helping my energy level as well as my weight. I just feel better about myself and really believe that I can have the body I want by the party in August...and that makes me happy. Jenn posted at 11:06 AM | |
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And now I think I'll get through The end of the world And now I think I'll get through Bein' a girl Now I think I'll get through Anything "Before You" by Chantal Kreviazuk Jenn posted at 12:42 AM | |
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participation positives: a better way to start Monday
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Alex, we love you and miss you (1981-2003) Jenn posted at 3:11 AM | |
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A super duper  to Adam on his 22nd birthday! I've been thinking about it all week, but I still did not manage to get a card in the mail to you. One is going out tomorrow. Love ya kiddo!
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Quotable HPR: Nate: Oh, I'm sorry, I thought we were in prison. Sara: Do I look like I would be your cellmate? Jenn posted at 11:44 AM | |
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Nothing like a reprimand from the owner about how you do your job to start out the day. ::sigh:: Jenn posted at 11:15 AM |
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Inventor of Canned Laughter Dies Jenn posted at 1:20 AM | |
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Weigh-In Wednesdays: Rock Bottom When did you realize you had to do something about your weight/health? So far, I haven't hit that point, at least not rock bottom. But while in high school and a couple of years beyond, I was relatively the same weight. Now I'm gaining weight more and more and it's not coming off the way I always thought it would. My shorts from senior year are tight, though more wearable than they were two summers ago. But my fitness committment has come on the heels of my bikini shopping. As any woman knows, this is never a pleasant experience. But I was trying on a particular suit and looked in the mirror and I just didn't like what I saw. I wasn't in shaped, there wasn't any tone. Just flab and fat wherever I looked. So I decided to try to get in shape for the summer. Unfortunately, "the summer" in LA is from March to October, so I don't have as much time as I would like. I'm working at it and hopefully I will be successful. Oh and D invited me to her yoga class, so hopefully that will work out too ;) Jenn posted at 10:04 PM | |
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Everytime I think I've been through every incarnation of hell on Earth, another crops up and taunts me. It is the worst feeling to be sitting on the floor of your room, listening to your best friend sob her eyes out and not being able to hug her or be there for her. But I'm so glad she called me. It is so hard being on this coast, unable to be there for those who are grieving and help those who need it. Today I had to get up and carry on while my heart hurts. Anna asked me a question and it caught me off guard. I've thought about it all night and this morning and I still don't have a good answer. She asked me how I had gotten through this twice. I told her it was by the Grace of God. And I think that must be it. I can't think of any good reason how I got through the deaths of Joe and Andy and to a lesser extent, Josh. Lots of hugs and tears (when I could cry them) and reassuring words. As I told Anna, I've found that every hour that goes by in those first few days seems little better. You feel like you can cope with the stabbing pain of the loss and carry on with your life. After a few days, you realize that you are having other thoughts and perhaps are not totally consumed with the "what ifs" and the "not fairs." But then you find something, a yearbook, a note, a photo and it destroys you all over again. And the process starts over again. LB Class of 1999 and WM Class of 2003, my thoughts and prayers are with you and well as with Alex's family and friends. Jenn posted at 10:56 AM | |
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not much else to say... Jenn posted at 8:52 PM | |
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HPR Quote of the Day: "Yeah, that's cool...getting your cancer on." Nate talking about the new trend of employees starting up smoking Jenn posted at 7:56 PM | |
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My DVD wishlist: 
Released May 20, 2003 
Released May 27, 2003 Felicity -- Season 2 Released July 22, 2003 Jenn posted at 9:27 AM | |
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I miss the warm, I miss the sun I miss the ocean, I miss everyone I miss the bridges that span across the bay Tonight it seems like ages ago "A Million Parachutes" by Sixpence None The Richer Jenn posted at 11:33 PM | |
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participation positives: a way to start Monday
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but i can feel you in my heart sometimes we never get the chance to say goodbye and what we love is gone in the blink of an eye i still love you and i always will and when tomorrow comes i'll still feel the same about you even though you're gone at night i pray before i go to sleep that someday we'll be together again always reminded i think about you all the time you'll always live on in my heart and my mind i've got to be strong now that's how you'd want me to be it's so hard but i've got to believe that i can make it even though you're gone "even though you're gone" by kind of blue Jenn posted at 12:29 AM | |
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I wrote this on the plane, since I had no access to my blog (note to self: Get a Palm Pilot!). Looking at the date, so many thoughts and feelings come to mind. I bought flowers on the altar for Joey, Andy and Chris this morning. Mrs. A hugged me this morning, saying "You remembered." I replied, "I'll never forget." Today, I sat only two or three spots from where I was sitting that morning. It has been six years, but while we were praying this morning, the memories (and the tears) came rushing back. Leaving the service, Erin calling Chris from Nancy's phone, wandering in the Commons in a fog. We didn't know where to go or what to do. Being herded into the Chapel where Wes could talk to us because by the Lord's grace he wasn't preaching that morning. Kristin holding me in her arms while we cried. Our parents standing at the door, helplessly watching us grieve with each other, mourning our dear friend. I was sixteen years old on that morning when my life changed forever. Somehow car washings and typing tests didn't seem as important as they once had. While the pain has dulled, it's still with me, not just today, but every day. So I hugged her tight this morning and felt the tears drip down for a moment, just being there for each other. I shared a similar hug with Mrs. M, who was touched that I remembered Chris with flowers. All I could say was "of course." We've been friends for almost 15 years and shared so much together. He's my big brother even though he's younger than me. How could I not honor him today as he serves our country in Iraq. My heart is full of love and anxiety for him and I pray to God every day to keep him safe and bring him home to us very soon. Between the MEU website and the wire photos I've found, I have a general idea where he is and where he's been and that almost makes me more nervous than when I didn't know. Hearing Caryn's message when I got off the plane today helped me immensely and I look forward to having him home soon. It was so fabulous to see so many familiar faces, even if some were missing. Kelsey, Caitlin, Kristin, Erin and Caryn -- I'm so glad I got the opporunity to see you, if only briefly. Hopefully we will have more time together when I'm home at Thanksgiving. Kristin, my dear, I got your message -- you gotta hook me up with the inappropriate for church gossip. I'm e-mailing you tonight! Someone asked me how breakfast was and I replied, "Just a casual meal between two old friends." And it was, it really was. Being at IHOP brings back memories for me, more good than bad, like the time we put up money for Adam to drink the syrup concoction he created and he did. Today was, however, the first time I can remember that he and I have shared a meal alone without pretense and it was nice. Just he and I, hanging out and enjoying each other as people. We talked about everything and nothing at all. Seems silly, but it was the perfect cap to my weekend. And I look forward to seeing him again in July, if everything works out. My allergies came back with a vengence yesterday and today. I'm sitting in my apartment waiting for them to go away. I had forgotten just how miserable spring used to be for me and that's another thing I can add to the list of things I don't miss about Fairfax. All in all, I had a fabulous time...much better than I ever anticipated. I'm dreading going to work tomorrow and getting back into the grind, so for now I'm just going to slack off and pretend I'm still on vacation. Jenn posted at 9:56 PM | |
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Well I hate to see this evening end God only knows when I'll see you again Just send a fax or send me a letter or give me a call that would even be better Give the kids a kiss for me and say hello to the family And tell them all my future's lookin' bright Well, I miss 'em but I'm doin' alright "I'm Alright" by Jo Dee Messina I've just arrived back to the house (well, about 45 minutes ago) from Harrisonburg. Seems silly, but I just had the best time sitting in a dorm room, walking around a college campus and eating in a dining hall in freezing cold temperatures and misty rain. After all these years, HT and I can still talk about anything (and do!). We both agreed that there's really no reason we should be so close or feel the need to keep in touch, but we can't not keep in touch. Somehow we have a connection and it just works. Anyhoo, despite the weather and the short time we got to spend together, I had a fabulous time with a fabulous guy! Hopefully it won't be two years before we see each other again. Now, it's just me and digital cable at my parents house until they arrive back at the homestead. Jenn posted at 9:04 PM |
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I'm going nowhere and I'm going to take my time All the questions in the world I can leave in my mind I'm waiting on the sunshine The sunshine I'm waiting for answers I'm waiting to figure it out "Waiting on the Sun" by Sixpence None The Richer Jenn posted at 11:27 AM | |
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I've noticed that I haven't really been blogging anything of interest lately. Going away on the weekends has really been taking it out on me. The good news is that I wasn't chosen for the Blue Ribbon panel supervisor gig this year, so next weekend I'll finally be catching up on some rest. I had a fabulous time in Tucson. It was so great to spend time with the family and just enjoy each other as people. I wish my grandparents could have been there. It's the first time that we've been all together like that since my cousin's wedding and it was a lot easier on everyone without that stress ;) It's great being seen as an adult after all these years and sharing opinions and stories that I'd never head before. We had a barbecue on Saturday night and John, my cousin-in-law, gave the perfect toast -- "To family!" I've just finished updating my photo album, so take a look and let me know what you think. Jenn posted at 11:34 PM | |
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SCORPIO (Oct. 23-Nov. 21): A breakthrough in your secret plans. There's pressure to rearrange the domestic scene. You incite envy, but in true Scorpio fashion you treat it as water off a duck's back. Who knew I had secret plans? Jenn posted at 11:32 PM | |
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I look out to the fields where blood is shed upon the ground I breathe in and breathe out, Change the channel, mute the sound I take a match, a cigarette, and a walk to clear my head My stomach's reeling at the thought of all those human beings dead I breathe in, I breathe out, then go down to do an interview About a song, three minutes long, I just need something to do Especially when my dearest friend was sent to cover Kosovo His last assignment brought a bullet and now he's gone Feels like I'm fiddlin' while Rome is burning down Should I lay my fiddle down, take a rifle from the ground I need the ghost to breath a northern gale tonight 'Cause I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed "Paralyzed" by Sixpence None The Richer Jenn posted at 11:20 PM | |
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Man, I've gotta stop procrastinating and do my laundry! I'm out of clothes!! Jenn posted at 9:40 PM | |
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participation positives: a way to start Monday
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Bass Says Kids on Show Make Him Feel Dumb Jenn posted at 9:48 AM | |
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NBC Pushes Movie About Rescued POW Lynch I saw this coming a mile away...as soon as I started hearing the story, I knew that those network development execs would be foaming at the mouth... Jenn posted at 9:19 PM | |
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"Hey" -- that word entered the venacular long before I was born and sometime in there, it became the standard casual phone greeting. One word, one syllable, but for those you know well, the way that they say it can automatically identify them to you. It reverberates in your head long after the conversation is done. The tiny snippet of their voice dances through your head along with memories and thoughts that they bring to mind. Listening to a familiar voice on the phone, the cadence, the speech patterns, all adding up to the person with whom it connects you. Feeling like it was only yesterday that you had heard the voice and wondering how you could have gone so long without hearing it anywhere but your mind. So, thank you, Chris for brightening my day with your "hey" and surprising me more than I could have ever dreamed. I look forward to seeing you very soon. Jenn posted at 2:59 AM | |
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participation positives: a way to start Monday
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Am now home from Vegas. Had a pretty good time, but I'm now exhuasted, so I will write more about it tomorrow and the days ahead. Jenn posted at 12:58 AM | |
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If you were just listening to Jamie and Danny on STAR 98.7, the guy who won the tickets to the Rolling Stones in Amsterdam, Rey, works at my office and was in the office when he won!!! WHOOHOO!!!! Jenn posted at 12:57 PM | |
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A shout out to Kristin and Sara! I hope it's a great one!
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Downtown LA Fault Line Worries Geologists <-- seems worrying to me too! Jenn posted at 9:13 AM | |
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Overall I ended up with 395 coins and placed 4635th out of 219,135 in the Real World Las Vegas Cheap Slots game on MTV.com. I think that's doing pretty well! Jenn posted at 9:12 AM | |
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Just got back from fabulous dinner with Katie at Mel's Drive In! I am totally stuffed with turkey, gravy and sourdough bread, so I am saving the mashed potatos and veggies for lunch tomorrow. Oh and I finally finished the roll of film from my camera that I've had in there since like October! Yay! Jenn posted at 4:14 AM |
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You know, you think the day is going well and then the cute guy at work comes in and says his girlfriend is moving in with him... Jenn posted at 8:52 PM | |